shoot~ i meant to post this in the last post, but i guess its becoming its own...
i'm thinking of switching blog sites. i like blogspot okay i guess, but thinking the wordpress scene is a little cleaner and more i dunno just tighter or somethin'. or typepad...just feelin' a change might be nice, even though this is DEF easy n stuff.
if any of you reading this has an opinion or feedback on that idea, please hit me up here with a comment or shout at me directly. thx!!!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
post vipassana, april 2009
...another one of those posts that i don't really know where to begin. i'll attempt to be systematic, to get as much as i can out, as succinctly as possible, while remaining true to my usual attempts at undercover quips & vernacular.
sunrise easter sunday morning, first morning of "noble chatter",
north fork, CA
recapping my first vipassana course is in order. my experience with 10 days of noble silence was a remarkable one. the irony of the noble silence part, at least ironic in the face of quieting the mind, is that it gets HELLA rowdy right before the quiet. like, the darkest hour of the night is right before dawn type of deal. so while i was working towards that peace, i was cracking myself up whenever i could. seriously. it was intense, hard work. like they said at the meditation course, set in north fork, california, a town which consider themselves to be the EXACT center of california, we were performing the deepest surgery possible on our minds, to purify them. whew!
the results, in general, have so far brought me a sort of calm to my daily life. and when i say "calm", i mean, i got to keep all the "regular" parts of who i am. i don't know how i may have been under the impression that those may disappear. nonetheless, i got to dig deep and scroll thru many scenarios in my mind, both past and future, which eventually led me to a present that was quite dynamic.
needless to say, i'd love to do the vipassana course again someday, and i'm grateful for the insight that motivated me to go in the first place.
and go figure, i came out with a vengeance! okay, not REALLY, but i did decide to drive to yosemite the day after we broke our noble silence. my first trip there FINALLY after living in california for nearly 14 years. and go figure, i proceeded to get my first speeding ticket in over FIVE years INSIDE this epic national park. as frustrating and annoying as it was to break that seal after so long, i laugh at THAT irony too. i mean, who comes out of a 10 day meditation course to get a SPEEDING TICKET thru yosemite? i do =) at least i got the money shot!
i have more to say...lots more...its continuing to percolate, brewing something i'm still not quite sure of, and the best part is i'm okay with that more than i ever have been. stay tuned! and if you've read this far, and been kind enough to nudge me a reminder to update here, thx for the patience, and sorry to say that my attempt at brevity may be back at north fork. after all, i've been saving it all up to spill here, and wasn't sure when i would. thought it would have been sooner than this, especially since i fantasized DAILY about making a "TOP 25 SONGS I WANT TO HEAR FIRST IMMEDIATELY AFTER VIPASSANA" list. maybe i'll still get to that...honorable mention, which surprised me too, was juice newton's queen of hearts, posted here for your entertainment XOXOXOXOXOXO
sunrise easter sunday morning, first morning of "noble chatter", north fork, CA
recapping my first vipassana course is in order. my experience with 10 days of noble silence was a remarkable one. the irony of the noble silence part, at least ironic in the face of quieting the mind, is that it gets HELLA rowdy right before the quiet. like, the darkest hour of the night is right before dawn type of deal. so while i was working towards that peace, i was cracking myself up whenever i could. seriously. it was intense, hard work. like they said at the meditation course, set in north fork, california, a town which consider themselves to be the EXACT center of california, we were performing the deepest surgery possible on our minds, to purify them. whew!
the results, in general, have so far brought me a sort of calm to my daily life. and when i say "calm", i mean, i got to keep all the "regular" parts of who i am. i don't know how i may have been under the impression that those may disappear. nonetheless, i got to dig deep and scroll thru many scenarios in my mind, both past and future, which eventually led me to a present that was quite dynamic.
needless to say, i'd love to do the vipassana course again someday, and i'm grateful for the insight that motivated me to go in the first place.
and go figure, i came out with a vengeance! okay, not REALLY, but i did decide to drive to yosemite the day after we broke our noble silence. my first trip there FINALLY after living in california for nearly 14 years. and go figure, i proceeded to get my first speeding ticket in over FIVE years INSIDE this epic national park. as frustrating and annoying as it was to break that seal after so long, i laugh at THAT irony too. i mean, who comes out of a 10 day meditation course to get a SPEEDING TICKET thru yosemite? i do =) at least i got the money shot!
i have more to say...lots more...its continuing to percolate, brewing something i'm still not quite sure of, and the best part is i'm okay with that more than i ever have been. stay tuned! and if you've read this far, and been kind enough to nudge me a reminder to update here, thx for the patience, and sorry to say that my attempt at brevity may be back at north fork. after all, i've been saving it all up to spill here, and wasn't sure when i would. thought it would have been sooner than this, especially since i fantasized DAILY about making a "TOP 25 SONGS I WANT TO HEAR FIRST IMMEDIATELY AFTER VIPASSANA" list. maybe i'll still get to that...honorable mention, which surprised me too, was juice newton's queen of hearts, posted here for your entertainment XOXOXOXOXOXO
Monday, March 30, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
vipassana
on wednesday, i'll be heading to a town south of yosemite, north of fresno called north fork. in that town is a vipassana center. i'll begin a 10 day silent meditation, a method that aims to eradicate suffering, and to see things as they are. here is a link to check it out. if you scroll to the bottom, you can go to the homepage to read more of the ins and outs. vipassana
i didn't go to hampton (phish). however you slice it and dice it, it wasn't something i was "supposed" to be a part of it. painful reality for me. on the first night of the three night run, i applied to be on the wait list for vipassana. i was, in my mind, so unnecessarily tortured by not being at hampton, by my attachment to "just a band" that i literally surrendered to MY flow and chose to embark on this meditation journey.
i know, it sounds really silly. all i can attest to is that the music of phish, and soon after they ended, ryan adams, has moved me so deeply that IT HURT not to be a part of the phish comeback celebration. at first, i wasn't ready to buy into all the hype of them coming back. by the time i realized how bad i wanted to be there, it was too late for me to make it happen. thus, vipassana was calling my name. i don't know what or how that will end up going, but at this point in my life, THAT is what i need. a reset button.
i would then go on thru the month of march to find my mind up against yet another "DO NOT MISS" friggin concert: the fox theater ryan adams/cardinals final show. again, just couldn't really rally for it. the month of march has been me facing my attachments and the struggle i have with them. this is more sharing than normal for me, here, and some people think, "its just music, its just a concert", and rightly so, IT IS. but i've got this unique opportunity to really dig deep, about why i NEED to be a part of it. there is something DEEP in my heart that NEEDS that connection when live music is occurring. i can't even care enough to try to type stupid words that would never justify it enough anyways.
and this vipassana is not NEARLY at all about missing some dumb concerts. my attachment to phish/cardinals/ryan/live music is just a vehicle i'm choosing to bring me nearer to acting from my heart. aligned with my heart.
i just ended my EIGHT year venture being self-employed. i haven't decided what i want to do next. i am going to vipassana with an open mind, an open heart, and thoughts of healing whatever wounds that are keeping me from living the life that has me fully expressed and in love again. wish me luck!
i didn't go to hampton (phish). however you slice it and dice it, it wasn't something i was "supposed" to be a part of it. painful reality for me. on the first night of the three night run, i applied to be on the wait list for vipassana. i was, in my mind, so unnecessarily tortured by not being at hampton, by my attachment to "just a band" that i literally surrendered to MY flow and chose to embark on this meditation journey.
i know, it sounds really silly. all i can attest to is that the music of phish, and soon after they ended, ryan adams, has moved me so deeply that IT HURT not to be a part of the phish comeback celebration. at first, i wasn't ready to buy into all the hype of them coming back. by the time i realized how bad i wanted to be there, it was too late for me to make it happen. thus, vipassana was calling my name. i don't know what or how that will end up going, but at this point in my life, THAT is what i need. a reset button.
i would then go on thru the month of march to find my mind up against yet another "DO NOT MISS" friggin concert: the fox theater ryan adams/cardinals final show. again, just couldn't really rally for it. the month of march has been me facing my attachments and the struggle i have with them. this is more sharing than normal for me, here, and some people think, "its just music, its just a concert", and rightly so, IT IS. but i've got this unique opportunity to really dig deep, about why i NEED to be a part of it. there is something DEEP in my heart that NEEDS that connection when live music is occurring. i can't even care enough to try to type stupid words that would never justify it enough anyways.
and this vipassana is not NEARLY at all about missing some dumb concerts. my attachment to phish/cardinals/ryan/live music is just a vehicle i'm choosing to bring me nearer to acting from my heart. aligned with my heart.
i just ended my EIGHT year venture being self-employed. i haven't decided what i want to do next. i am going to vipassana with an open mind, an open heart, and thoughts of healing whatever wounds that are keeping me from living the life that has me fully expressed and in love again. wish me luck!
feb recap
i've gotten really behind on this blog. i've seen some amazing music in the last couple months. at the same rate, there were some really mammoth shows that i didn't see, painstakingly enough. i'll do a quickie little recap, if not for my own little self-indulgence that i happen to share on the WWW. some "expected" great shows, some unexpected...
eagles of death metal, fillmore in early feb. didn't realized i would enjoy that one as much as i did. mingled with that camp thru a friend i met during the 2007 ryan adams/cardinals tour who was tour managing the EODM. they were a very sweet bunch of people, who have all known each other for years, and i felt grateful to be included for a night of their mayhem. major family vibe.
michael franti & ALO fox theater in oakland, during its opening weekend. that theater is poised to see some seriously epicly life-altering music, i reckon. believe it or not, i get kinda bored with michael franti lately. i feel ashamed of that, to a certain extent. but hey, i love SO much music that for me, it feels good to know what i like, at least. and its not that i don't like it. i dance, and my friends are there n stuff. it all just starts sounding the same to me at a certain point. whatevz really, i thought the part i caught of ALO was REALLY good. can't say enough about how good i think dan lebowitz (guitar for ALO) is. SICK!
the white thighs, connecticut yankee: valentine's day found me babysitting for my dear friends, then busting a move out to see my big light friends play w their original band the white thighs. it was a super silly fun time.
ALO & big light, the mystic in petaluma: my virgin run of the mystic. local faves both big light AND alo B R O U G H T I T. a stormy massively rainy drive up from the city north to petaluma brought a super fun night of music. GREAT way for me to see my first gig at that neato venue.
jackie greene band + phil lesh, bob weir, great american music hall (night one): i LOVE jackie's music. LOVE. this show was two sets of his original tunes, with an acoustic set by jackie/bobby/phil. um, HELL YES. the middle acoustic set on night one was a little rusty, but who cared? it was still REALLY good.
jackie greene band + phil lesh, bob weir, GAMH (night two): LOVED night 2 much better than night one. third set was KOOKOO! sorry, can't deal w the details right now, but that third set was FUN~ whew! couldn't mingle too much after cuz i had an ER-ER-EARLY flight the next morning to catch my last cardinals shows...
the cardinals plus ryan adams, new haven: LONG day for me, espesh having just ROCKED out at the jackie shows two nights prior, but this new haven show was good. the music was GREAT, but i was pooped from my travel day and ryan was kinda annoying me, prolly cuz i was tyty. nonetheless, GREAT music and i was happy to skip boston so i could be fresh for MONTCLAIR!
the cardinals plus ryan adams, wellmont theater: as it stands, this would turn out to be my "last" cardinals gig. it was a worthy show for me to bid farewell (for now) to my mighty friends who play that heavenly music. this show was just ON. had some of my SERIOUSLY best friends at the gig, and couldn't have asked for a better night of music/fun/mischief. just AWESOME. i can't even deal with putting the link to the show here cuz if i don't keep typing to get thru my recap, it will not happen.
again, this is all more for me than anyone, cuz i'm amused when i actually read some of this stuff back. i could try to put pix up n stuff along w it all but i don't have the energy. sorrs.
eagles of death metal, fillmore in early feb. didn't realized i would enjoy that one as much as i did. mingled with that camp thru a friend i met during the 2007 ryan adams/cardinals tour who was tour managing the EODM. they were a very sweet bunch of people, who have all known each other for years, and i felt grateful to be included for a night of their mayhem. major family vibe.
michael franti & ALO fox theater in oakland, during its opening weekend. that theater is poised to see some seriously epicly life-altering music, i reckon. believe it or not, i get kinda bored with michael franti lately. i feel ashamed of that, to a certain extent. but hey, i love SO much music that for me, it feels good to know what i like, at least. and its not that i don't like it. i dance, and my friends are there n stuff. it all just starts sounding the same to me at a certain point. whatevz really, i thought the part i caught of ALO was REALLY good. can't say enough about how good i think dan lebowitz (guitar for ALO) is. SICK!
the white thighs, connecticut yankee: valentine's day found me babysitting for my dear friends, then busting a move out to see my big light friends play w their original band the white thighs. it was a super silly fun time.
ALO & big light, the mystic in petaluma: my virgin run of the mystic. local faves both big light AND alo B R O U G H T I T. a stormy massively rainy drive up from the city north to petaluma brought a super fun night of music. GREAT way for me to see my first gig at that neato venue.
jackie greene band + phil lesh, bob weir, great american music hall (night one): i LOVE jackie's music. LOVE. this show was two sets of his original tunes, with an acoustic set by jackie/bobby/phil. um, HELL YES. the middle acoustic set on night one was a little rusty, but who cared? it was still REALLY good.
jackie greene band + phil lesh, bob weir, GAMH (night two): LOVED night 2 much better than night one. third set was KOOKOO! sorry, can't deal w the details right now, but that third set was FUN~ whew! couldn't mingle too much after cuz i had an ER-ER-EARLY flight the next morning to catch my last cardinals shows...
the cardinals plus ryan adams, new haven: LONG day for me, espesh having just ROCKED out at the jackie shows two nights prior, but this new haven show was good. the music was GREAT, but i was pooped from my travel day and ryan was kinda annoying me, prolly cuz i was tyty. nonetheless, GREAT music and i was happy to skip boston so i could be fresh for MONTCLAIR!
the cardinals plus ryan adams, wellmont theater: as it stands, this would turn out to be my "last" cardinals gig. it was a worthy show for me to bid farewell (for now) to my mighty friends who play that heavenly music. this show was just ON. had some of my SERIOUSLY best friends at the gig, and couldn't have asked for a better night of music/fun/mischief. just AWESOME. i can't even deal with putting the link to the show here cuz if i don't keep typing to get thru my recap, it will not happen.
again, this is all more for me than anyone, cuz i'm amused when i actually read some of this stuff back. i could try to put pix up n stuff along w it all but i don't have the energy. sorrs.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
scarlet begonias 4.27.77 YUM
happy sunday w jerry+ co...YAY!
okay. for the jonesers to see whats next, here's this. just wow
okay. for the jonesers to see whats next, here's this. just wow
Sunday, March 15, 2009
asteroids crash!
briefly, i have some MAJOR catching up to do here. in lieu of that, my girl DB tipped me off to this sweet little vid that you may enjoy...i'll be back around soon, hopefully, to hash over what music i've caught (or didn't catch)~ cheers! this vid originally was posted on THIS blog but i found it at THIS blog...
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